Thursday, October 21, 2004
I have been whinny these few days and my blog is full of my negative, oppositions, complaints and more complaints. A big Turned -off for me even i read it myself. A advance PMS perhaps ? I fig out that there is only one week of good face day and good mood day for every month.
Today is in a super-duper foul, offensively malodorous , stinky and putrid mood like a bloody puking dead rotten rat with thousands of sickening maggot feeding on it. (I hope they are the bloody dead rat)
Why? there are somebody in the world who is ....so cruel , realistic and so snapped-off from their inconsiderate, selfish personality that is so emotionless, even to such a cute gurl like me :p. What Worst? They Lie. Lying without blink an eyelid. (Hey, at least I am so innocent and impretentious that I dun even know how to act in lying, ok?) They just simply lack of integrity .(HUpm...this word is taught by a job agent this afternoon)
Why can't they bring some humanly emotion in the workplace? Thay make this world a better place can't they ? Terrorism had created enough fear for the mankind in this beautiful earth.
All we yield is a simple life where people work together harmonically, happily. Such a simple wish but so difficult to achieve.
This is why Saudis fly jets into our skyscrapers
"Father forgive them," Jesus commands God from the cross, "for they know not what they do" (Lk 23:34).
This force of forgiveness flung across heaven and earth.As energy forgiveness has power, is power. Forgiveness is the God's will.
For us to offer or receive forgiveness, our bodies and minds must empty, like the tomb. Emotions and feelings need time to be experienced, time to subside. Expectations are often unknown until they are not met. Secret desires are sometimes slow to rise, until leavened with disappointment.
But....I am so immunised with hatred that I want to forgive. I wish I have the power to forgive them. Forgive is the only way out to happiness . MY great lord Jesus Christ had mentioned before, if I can't forgive others, nor Him will forgive me of my sins. Well, i had forgive them, nevermind , i will soon forget. Anyway, If I would be them, I may do the same thing too, a lot of things in this world is not done on intentionally to hurt , to upset as in this cruel and competitive world, in some circumstances, forced people to do something that is undesirable.
The great secret to simple life and happiness is all summarised in one word : Contentment.
Are u content with your own life? MAybe is not really content but still have few small disatisfaction , well, u can consider lucky.If with an infinite dissatisfaction ? There are only 2 selection to get out of this mess,. First, I know u are living miserably but I suggusts that u shall better died off sooner than bring others to unhappiness , using the wimp method :carbon monoxide toxification.
Second, U should face the wall and rethink about it, visit homes of the less fortunate. People who paralysied whole body down, risk of getting secondary condition such as bed sore which led to a Systematic infection that caused complicated disaeses such as cardiac failure, bladder uncontrollable...u name it , they got it.....Aaa... Am I toking about our late super hero in our heart : Christopher Reeve ? He was 52 years old. Christopher was a hero to many people, yet he was most moved by others, stating,
"I think a hero is an ordinary individual who finds the strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles."
And , he once said this before,
"So many of our dreams at first seem impossible, then they seem improbable, and then when we summon the will, they soon become inevitable."
We Must. We Can. We Will.
I suddenly feels a sudden rush of dreams again by his golden word.
Just this morning, I felt terrible and all hopes and dreams had trashed to the bin in just overnight, then it is cleared by the rubbish truck, driven away, and burned by the incinerator which that is done every morning under my HDB.
That complete loser feeling is more than a stab in your heart. Your mind is blank because you don't know what to do next, u can't cry because you are too dumb to cry. That betrayed feeling cause the rush of blood to circulate my whole body ,increases your metabolism which result in fat burning. (yahoo...) Increase the heart beats , more air needed to breathe though my nose. Practically panting
I tell u what...it is like drug addiction. U take some drugs that can gives u "high", this is only for a few hours of fantastic moment but end up suffering for long period of life. Is those drugs worth it? NO! Let us relate it to hope, dreams and plans. Are they worth it ? no........... This is what it feels sometimes when it sucks big time. U never believe in hopes again from that great discouragement.
ok lets get back to main topic; Contentment. People content with their life is the happiest people in the world. If there is somebody that I envied, I will envied those those contented people with a good heart. if there is one persom that I want to be, I want to be a person who is content with their life.
Let us follow God's words,
In Psalm 130 , A song of Ascents , it says,
Out of the depths I cry to you.
O LORD;
O Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.
if you, O Lord, kept a record of sins.
O lord, who could stand?
But with you there is forgiveness;
therefore you are feared.
I wait for the Lord, my soul waits,
and in his word i put my hope.
M soul waits for the Lord
more than watchman wait for the morning,
more than they wait for the morning.
Let Israel hope in the LORD
for with the LORD there is mercy,
and with him is plenteous redemption.
And he shall redeem Israel from all his iniquities
This afternoon, I wished happy birthday to my 2nd brother though SMS wif gif of a birthday cake.
HE msg back to me "THAnks sis! "
A simple wish give a simple touch to someone's special day.
My dear colleague Asiah which I called to today, is sick and I send her my regards. She missed me and hope to see me back to work again. Work without me is boring for her (yea, i got a lot of story) and she is sick becoz she missed me too much !(lolx)
I hear a nice song today and complete addicted to it, sing to it and forgotten all the troubles.
Just this , I seems to forget their distorted, devlish faces which I thought to see, now their face is a face of a human that worth my sympathy, my blessing.
This is another examples of contentment ba?
We shall keep a memory for Christopher, as his inner strength will serve as inspiration .To see Christophter Reeve's Paralysis Foundation, click here.
Wah..rareli wrote such a long blog.....
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地心引力 by 言承旭
只要你一笑 我就又都不介意 你对我任性
我竟然还觉得荣幸 不在乎爱情 会是自由的天敌
根本已经为你失去我平常的冷静 虽然我还不擅长
幸福这种东西 可是我真的很想 把所有你要的
都放在你的手心
爱像地心引力 无法抗拒 一吋一吋 深深的被你吸引
心碎也没关系 等待也都愿意 人群之中我只能看见你
爱像地心引力 没有空隙 一天一天 不见你也在想你
我在你的眼里 重新认识自己 在你面前原来微笑那么容易
我终于明白 那些孤单的夜里 寂寞的表情
是因为你还没靠近 原来我愿意 为等一个人淋雨
是你唤醒了我自己都不懂的深情 虽然我还不擅长
幸福这种东西 可是我真的很想 把所有你要的
都放在你的手心
爱像地心引力 无法抗拒 一吋一吋 深深的被你吸引
心碎也没关系 等待也都愿意 人群之中我只能看见你
爱像地心引力 没有空隙 一天一天 不见你也在想你
我在你的眼里 重新认识自己 在你面前原来微笑那么容易
虽然我还不擅长 幸福这种东西
可是我真的很想 把所有你要的 都放在你的手心
爱像地心引力 无法抗拒(无法抗拒)
一吋一吋 深深的被你吸引(深深被你吸引)
心碎也没关系 等待也都愿意
人群之中我只能看见你(只能看见你)
爱像地心引力 没有空隙(没有空隙)
一天一天 不见你也在想你(也在想你 想你)
我在你的眼里 重新认识自己
在你面前原来微笑那么容易(那么容易)
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